[2020-11-17] Thinking ahead to the holidays
After a slow start to my day because of continued nausea, sleepiness and numbness in my hands, I got a second wind (or should I call it a first wind?) and started thinking ahead to the holidays. I know that may sound like I'm not living in the moment, but planning for Christmas gave me a psychological boost, which—in turn—took my mind off my physical woes.
At my daughter's request, I created a Christmas list. It's been many years since I made a list of what I want for Christmas. And this year, more than ever before, health would be at the top of that list. But I also know how challenging holiday shopping will be this year, so I wanted to make it easier on my family.
After lunch, I worked on a simple newsletter that I'm planning to include with the holiday cards I will be sending out this year. I can't remember the last time I sent Christmas cards, but I wanted to do so this year. I know how much I have enjoyed receiving cards through the mail since I was diagnosed. And I felt that a card would be a nice way to let family members know I'm thinking of them, especially since I won't see them this year for the holidays.
Reflecting on what 2020 means to me and my immediate family was an interesting exercise. Despite my drafting a newsletter while still feeling sick from chemo, I was feeling optimistic, grateful and blessed.
As I've said before, along with COVID and cancer, 2020 brought caring—so much caring that the good easily overshadowed the bad. My family has been so loving, understanding and present. My employees and colleagues have been exceedingly kind, generous and thoughtful. My friends, whom I define as anyone who has been there for me under no obligation, have been incredibly optimistic, encouraging and positive. And the new people I've met virtually as a result of sharing my story have brought hope and a sense of gratitude.
I have also welcomed news that had nothing to do with me and my cancer. Stories of finding new love in the time of COVID, of birthday celebrations, of working from a distance but closer to loved ones, of babies, of laughing over mismatched clothes.
I hope that you have much to be grateful for in 2020 despite the year's ups and downs. And I hope that you find ways to celebrate with loved ones.
